I’m a free bird….I want to spread my wings and fly. Fly high…high up in the wide blue sky. My desires, my aspiration, my dreams my faith, my believe are the feathers of my wings. I always wanted to reach the sky and look beyond the blue spread. It always holds great mystery to my 3 yr old mind…a fantasy, an enigma…. a greater curiosity.
As a child, I always looked up to the heaven, a world beyond the reach of common people, beyond speculation, beyond the SKIES. My young eyes would search for any gap, a hole… maybe I could catch a glimpse of the Gods. I was told by my sweet granny there are 33 crores of Hindu Gods and Goddesses.
Wow!! heaven must be really crowded and there are Gods of other religions too. How do they manage to stay afloat?
The clouds always looked like they are trying to tell me something that only I can understand. The Gods are trying to convey some messages to me. I am the chosen one The Almighty(s) wants to communicate with. My innocent soul would try and try to decipher the hidden meaning behind those strange looking white soft flying cottons, or could it be vanilla ice creams. The later sounded much better and I would stay out in the rain with my mouth open when it rains….to be disappointed and dejected and beaten….my fault, thought they were vanilla, turned out to be plain water, could be harmful as ma said…I disobeyed her and just got greedy so she just got mad and I bore the blunt.
Later granny told me as she wiped my tears that the Raksashas (I think they looked like Pirates) ate up the ice cream that’s why God became mad and the clouds turned black. I felt pity for the raksashas, they too must have been naughty and God had beaten them, the rains are their tears. But granny told me not to pity them, that they are evils and lived in Hell, which is inside the earth….. I was more upset when I heard this. It’s not fair, those who a live beneath us gets the chance to go up to the clouds and I who lives closer can’t go there. I sulked for days.
Then I started going to school. Got busy with homework’s, new friends and lots of other activities, and then college, boyfriends, parties, movies…..and then started working and there was no looking back.... it's just work, work and work.
Now who’s got the time to decipher meaningless blobs of vapour?
